It's like everyone is addicted to crack, but they don't want to admit it.
There is a point i have reached in my life where playing the role i thought i wanted to live has become boring to me.
It's almost as if the world around me left me for a second and in that short time i saw how needless every monetary and emotional want i have witnessed is.
To live you need ambition, with out that you have died before drawing your last breath. with ambition comes the choice to leave things and to take things. The decision of the later defines how ambitious you really are. I have chose that with nothing in the instance of materialism, the expirence of everything i do will become tripled in it's meaning. Not only to me but to those i incounter.
If i have no personal ties to the things i do, then their success is inevitable. Because it won't be my success but some one elses. There is no need to make a name for yourself or be accepted or to have a since of achievement. The only need is the simple fural needs of water food and shelter. Everything else man has created to validfy his existence is superfluous.
In fact this blog is superfluous.
But it is where i annouce to myself the feelings of a moment so i can get on with my life and never feel the same thing again.
"I exist therefore i am" is a statment of a uneducated poppy smoking gypsy who had the privledge of being historically documented.
I exist therefore my need of anything else is not.
Expirences in life will come undoubtedly. But the manner in which to live them shouldnt be greedy.
If you spend your money young, drive as fast as you can, make decisions on a whim and never look behind you, when you do go to draw your last breath there will be a fullfillment money, relationships, and reknown will never be able to offer. It will be one of ownership on the one thing that is truly yours and that is your life.
If you endeavour to amass that which man has historically always tried to, i.e., money. power, women and reknown, then you will end up asking yourself the same question everyone else has before they died. "did i make an impact" "was my life good" "do people know my name," essentially asking the opinion of what your peers think of your accomplishments. When really the only opinion you should be concerned about is your own.
